Thursday December 24 2020 | File under: holidays |
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on Fri 25th Dec, 2020 10:06 am EST pat and carol said: we loved it and miss her also, we love you and wish you well and a merry christmas ************************ on Mon 28th Dec, 2020 09:57 pm EST Andrew said: Love you, brother. ************************ on Wed 30th Dec, 2020 04:03 pm EST Horge said: Dearest Wren, you already know / That you're such a lucky fella / To have loved such an angel / As your sweet Moustachella. / But what you should know now / Though don't think that it's weird / While she's looking down smiling / And sorely missing your beard, / She's probably dancin' up there / Jugglin' by the Pearly Gates / And braggin' to ol' St. Peter / About her shorts-wearin' soulmate. ************************ on Wed 30th Dec, 2020 04:07 pm EST Horge said: By no means do I want to diminish your loving poem, but yours inspired me to try to imitate yours to 1) hopefully give you a little bit of cheer, and 2) let you know that I'm positive that the waves of love are flowing to you too, not just from her up above, but from all of us who love you down here as well. Thinking of you both from across the Atlantic! XOXO ************************ |
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Saturday November 21 2020 | File under: Della |
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on Mon 23rd Nov, 2020 02:57 pm EST Heidi said: Thanks you Wren! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ ************************ on Mon 23rd Nov, 2020 05:20 pm EST Paula said: Writing is cathartic and a wonderful way to keep Della's light shining. Keep doing it. I wish we'd had the chance to get to know her better, that our paths had crossed more. I know we would've loved her. Thank you for sharing her joy and kindness with us. We all need more of that in our lives. ************************ on Mon 23rd Nov, 2020 10:43 pm EST Andrew said: Well said. ************************ on Thu 26th Nov, 2020 09:32 pm EST Anneka said: Thank you so much Wren. You articulate it all so well, and I just love reading everything you share about our beloved Della. ❤️ ************************ on Sun 29th Nov, 2020 09:45 pm EST Mark said: It's got to be the hardest thing to put all of this into words, Wren, but you've done a beautiful job of it. I thank you for giving us all a full picture of who Della was - I especially appreciate knowing about the YouTube channel (just went down that rabbit hole) - and thank you for bringing her into our lives! ************************ |
![]() "The light has gone out of my life." These words from Teddy Roosevelt upon his life's great tragedy constantly run through my head, because I am at a lack of words of my own to describe how I feel losing Della, my partner, my light. The light has gone out of my life. This article from the Bozeman paper covers the basics. (Archival screenshot here.) Words are failing on so many fronts. All the wonderful and heartfelt outpouring of stories, remembrances, and praise for the amazing, caring, funny, thoughtful, joyful woman Della was hardly begins to convey her wonderful qualities. I am brought to tears throughout the day by tiny reminders of her beautiful smile, compassionate nature, and hilarious spirit. Much has also been shared on the loss to the community, which is indeed great. A Bellingham Circus Guild show without Della won't be the same without her thought-provoking yet hilarious acts, her playful greeting of audiences, and infectious enthusiasm for the cast and crew backstage. A trip to the grocery store for the scores of people who knew and loved Della without the probability inevitably running into her and having their day made by a reminder of some shared history or joke will be noticeably missing. But words can't capture that loss either. But most of all, I can't find words, much less wrap my head around, my loss: the loss of my partner, my heart, my soul, my light. My future without Della does not compute. I can't make sense of anything. It's like I'm missing a part of me that made me able to function, to feel. Anyone who has known me in the past 11 years knows this better than any words could encapsulate: Della was my light. And now she's gone. The light has gone out of my life. In the days since the tragedy, I've tried many things to cope. One suggestion I got was to write. And while even now, I know my words are hardly coherent, then I was doing all I could to get my thoughts down. One attempt I made came out in the form "How Lucky I Was". I'll include it here as I don't know what else to do. ![]() And it was a special relationship, if I do say so myself. We were partners in all the senses. We built a business together, a business that succeeded partially on the way we brought audiences into our relationship with us. We managed our crazy lives together, staying at this house or that, shuttling, sorting, and fixing a never-ending stream of circus props and costumes, always something new to decide on together and rarely a routine to guide us. We supported each other in our individual endeavors. We did so many fun and amazing things together. We were a part of each other to the core. And maybe this is the way a lot of relationships are. I hope so. If what I call special is what's par for the course, that means more people are as happy as I was. And I wish that for everyone ![]() This blog has always been a chronicle of my life, a way to share the ups and downs with the few friends and family that still bother to read. Well, Della's death is a down, a down that I don't imagine will ever be out-downed. It is deep and painful and disorienting. But I'm hoping that sharing it makes it slightly less deep, hurt slightly less. I guess I'm just really sad and don't know what else to do. Truly, the light has gone out of my life. |
Tuesday November 3 2020 | File under: love |
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on Tue 03rd Nov, 2020 11:54 pm EST Katy said: Beautiful Wren, thank you for sharing. ❤️ ************************ on Wed 04th Nov, 2020 01:08 am EST Andrew said: Love you both. ************************ on Thu 05th Nov, 2020 10:38 pm EST Raine said: I'm so, so sorry for your loss, Wren. Thinking of you every day like so many. Much care and comfort. ************************ on Fri 06th Nov, 2020 12:38 am EST Stefan said: "Infectious enthusiasm" is an excellent description. How wonderful that Della chose you. ************************ on Fri 06th Nov, 2020 01:52 pm EST Stephanie said: When I understood what happened (and I'm sorry about inadvertently demanding attention that next day, I was so confused as to what was happening and it was so kind of you to reach out despite what you must have been going through...) I couldn't wrap my head around it either. I still can't. You two were really a perfect match. You really complemented each other in all that you did, and it was really fun to watch everything you two got up to from afar. What you wrote here was is a really beautiful reflection, and I'm so glad that you have shared it. ************************ on Fri 06th Nov, 2020 09:52 pm EST Keith Conover said: I came across your blog while trying to find out more on Della, her accident and what she had been doing in recent years. She and I went to school together in PT. We were friends and like a lot of people, lost touch after school. Hands-down, she was one of the nicest people I had ever known. I can only imagine what you're going though. Hopefully you find joy in your memories. She truly was a wonderful person. So sorry for your loss and the hurt you and her family are experiencing. ************************ on Sun 08th Nov, 2020 12:43 am EST Nate said: It's so wonderful to be reminded of the sheer mountain of joy that Della brought into the world. I would love to read more memories if you care to share. ************************ on Mon 09th Nov, 2020 12:39 am EST Mindy said: You know I love you... but, you ARE a total “schmo”... Hell, we all are. None of us deserved her. But please know if you need anything I am here with an open heart and an open mind. No judgement on how you process grief. ************************ on Thu 12th Nov, 2020 01:14 am EST Anneka said: ❤️💔❤️ ************************ on Tue 17th Nov, 2020 06:43 pm EST pat and carol said: our hearts break for you as much as it does for each other ************************ on Mon 23rd Nov, 2020 11:23 pm EST Jessica Lovejoy said: Thank you for sharing Wren. Love you so much. Della is in our hearts for always and forever. ************************ |
![]() Well, needless to say, Della and I aren't performing the Real Food Show (nor almost anything else) these days, so we've got a bit of time on our hands. And since a lot of schools are doing the whole virtual thing, at least for the time being, which we only imagine isn't easy on the parents, teachers, or students, we got an idea. We decided to record the Real Food Show and make it available for all for free as a video on youTube. That way, when a kiddo needs a break or a treat but still needs to log those educational hours, they can watch us juggle junk food, balance protein blocks, and ride unicycles, all the while learning about healthy eating in a fun, engaging way! Our hope is that the show will reach millions of little eyeballs spreading the important message of health while causing smiles on both kids', parents', and teachers' faces alike, so by all means, if you know someone who might find it helpful, please feel free to pass it along: http://www.tinyurl.com/realfoodshow And since I know you, loyal BdW reader, want to see what all the health fuss is about, I'm proud to present the Real Food Show. Enjoy! |
Monday September 28 2020 | File under: circus, food |
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![]() Thanks to the time freed up by having all my work and adventures cancelled by quarantine, I've completed another long-overdue project! I've been dreaming and scheming of this money map for well over a decade. Every country I travel to*, I try to come home with one of each of the coins and bills under, say, $10. It's often the only souvenir I end up with. And over the past decade plus, I've built up quite a collection. Before you ask, no, each country isn't made up only with coins from that country. I considered that, but logistically, it just doesn't make sense. Panama and Costa Rica together can only fit one small coin while Russia and China would have tons of repeat coins. It was hard enough deciding what to do with narrow land masses that were fractions of a coin wide. (Malay Peninsula, I'm sorry.) It broke my heart to cut the paper money to make the shapes, but I consoled myself knowing that the money is either outdated, of so little value that it's no big deal, or that I won't likely return to the country to use to it*. Even so, there's well over the equivalent of $100 used which makes it maybe the most expensive piece of art I own. This thing is not small, either. It is over 6 feet wide (obligatory artist with his creation shot for scale), partially to help deal with those pesky narrow land masses and small islands. And getting the coins to stick in place was a bear. I fully expect to awake to the plink plink of falling coins some night not too far off. But overall, I'm inordinately pleased with how it turned out, and that I finally got around to completing a project that's been in my head for so long. Admiring at all the money while creating it and remembering the stories attached to each place was a great balance to the backache that came from being hunched over, gluing for hours at a time. Really, I don't think I could conceive of a piece of art better suited to my interest: travel and money. Sure, maybe I could throw in the equator made of gummi bears, but that's how you get ants. What will the next long-overdue quarantine art project be? Check back in 5 months to find out! P.S. If destroying money is illegal, I'm sorry. And I've got a lot of countries I better not show my face in again. Here's hoping the Governor of the Netherlands Antilles isn't an avid BdW reader. |
Saturday September 5 2020 | File under: travel, misc |
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on Sat 26th Sep, 2020 11:44 am EDT Horge said: Cool! Want to add any closeups of the continents? I'm curious what's where (won't ask you to label each of them, but also wouldn't say no to you doing it) ************************ |
![]() Notable occurances of this 41st trip around the sun were:
What solar circumnavigation #42 has in store is more up in the air than ever before. I hope my custom tailored life stays pretty much the same, maybe just cranked up a tiny notch or two: slightly more adventurous adventures, slightly more successful successes, and slightly more noteable noteables. But we'll see what Dr. Fauci* has to say about that. But even if this life on pause continues until I'm 42, where I am at 41 is not a bad place to be paused: safe and comfortable home, wonderful partner, and diversions enough to keep things from getting too boring. All in all, on the occasion of reflection, I'd say all is well: the reflection of my life I see makes me smile and what better birthday wish could a guy hope for? |
Monday August 17 2020 | File under: misc |
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on Fri 28th Aug, 2020 01:09 pm EDT Chris said: Well done on avoiding the light for one more year! Although I'm concerned by your banner - it looks like the "1" isn't permanent - Is there talk that your birthday is in danger of being revoked?!? ************************ on Mon 07th Sep, 2020 01:05 am EDT rus said: yr running data impresses me. keep on keep on. ************************ on Sat 26th Sep, 2020 11:50 am EDT Horge said: Happy belated birthday! I can't remember if I wrote you about it. I know I thought it (also since you share it with my sister-in-law), but at my age, I ain't so good at the 'memberin' like I used to... ************************ |
![]() Needless to say, COVID-19 and its accompanying quarantine is the reason this year's data is so different. Cancelled housesitting, cancelled travel, and cancelled gigs all make for a pretty bland data set. In the 12 years I've been keeping data, I've never spent more than twenty-odd nights in a row at home, with anything over a week being a rarity. This year, I've only slept away from the Outback three nights in 5 months, with a solid 3-month uninterrupted at home chunk in middle of all that. ![]() Nights at home vs. housesitting And while I know comparisons are basically moot, I'm a creature of habit, so here's a table of data:
Other observations and thoughts:
This yearly recap always makes me nostalgic, contemplative, and excited for the future, this year maybe more than ever. And with so much around me different and upside down, it is nice to have the warm consoling arms of data to make things feel just a little bit normal. |
Sunday August 2 2020 | File under: stats |
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![]() Having a crossword come out is always an exciting event for me. Even though this puzzle is my 35th published puzzle(!), I still get a twinge of excitement ![]() Besides skimming the reviews, one of my publication-day routines is to try and find a copy of said puzzle. The published version always differs enough from my submitted version (mostly in the cluing) that I feel like I need to grab a copy for posterity (and to add to my resume). This hunt sometimes takes me to interesting places. This time around, before I drove up to Alger to grab a paper copy and after a thorough tour of medium-size town's newspaper websites*, I found myself buying a digital copy of the Scranton Times-Tribune for the above image. There went all my profit... Crossword construction has been a great diversion for me as all of our juggling gigs have evaporated this Spring and Summer. I've made some puzzles that I think are pretty dang neat. And a few of them have been accepted for publication to boot! Stay tuned for more crossword action here on BdW. |
Wednesday July 15 2020 | File under: crossword |
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![]() In my continuing Minor Media Mentions series, Della and I made it to this week's Anacortes American! The article was about the recent event we did with the Anacortes Music Project where we went around to 6 different neighborhoods and did a short show (half circus, half music). The event went really well, and despite us being sorely out of performing shape*, we had a great time. So far, 2020 is shaping up to be a pretty slow year for Della and me, juggling-wise. Almost all of our events have been cancelled or seriously scaled back. A few new gigs have trickled in (a birthday party here, a mini-celebration there), but all the biggies—festivals, library shows, fairs—are a no go. While it is hard to have the momentum of our career derailed, or at least put on hold, we know it could be worse. We're trying to use the downtime to stay practiced, rework acts, and even come up with a bit of new material. (Check out our instagram (@WrenAndDella) for the beginnings of our new chicken act!*) In knowing 2020 is going to be so slow, it is nice to get this little nod from the local paper. And additionally, our good friend and AMAZING photographer Thadeus Hink, snapped some great shots! ![]() ![]() ![]() |
Saturday June 20 2020 | File under: media, juggling |
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on Thu 25th Jun, 2020 03:37 pm EDT Horge said: Instawhat? ************************ |
![]() All it took was 19 hikes, spread out over about a month, averaging about 1.5 hours for me to systematically check off all the trails. I could have probably picked a more efficient route to knock them all off, though some backtracking couldn't be avoided. But hey, it's quarantine—what else was I going to do? I was surprised to find a few trails I didn't recognize and also be reminded of a few favorite spots. But the greatest thing about the project was that it got me out of the house (in a time that it was much needed*). I got some exercise, I got to be surrounded by the calming beauty of nature, and I fully caught up on my all podcasts. The dozens of miles hiked (along with all the biking it took to get there) didn't, however, help shed those COVID-15, but so it goes. Now that things are starting to open back up, I plan on turning me eyes to trails further afield, trails that I haven't hiked on umpteen times (yesterday, I hiked up to Cow Heaven and got to frolic in the snow!) But it's nice to know that I'll always have a wonderful trail right in my backyard the next time the need arises. ![]() ![]() ![]() |
Saturday June 6 2020 | File under: Anacortes |
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on Sun 07th Jun, 2020 03:30 pm EDT Horge said: Just my Firefox, or do the first three images (linked to "all the trails") not work? I can see the rest, but for them get an eternally loading thing... ************************ on Sun 07th Jun, 2020 05:12 pm EDT Wren said: Horge, you should consider a job in QA/Testing. Lord knows BdW could use that...and a proofreader... and a graphics guy...and a better blogger...and a photo model. ************************ on Tue 09th Jun, 2020 12:45 am EDT Andrew said: Don't leave me in suspense! What did Kilowatt Kitty say? ************************ |